the road ahead
Student of structure and form. Admirer of beauty and serenity.
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it’s quite possible i’ve just had the best valentine’s day ever. i made it to school on time today (kevin looked pretty pissed Shahab and i were late on tuesday), i got free food at the SEAOC meeting (free lunch FTW), i made a spontaneous decision to drive to avila and run on the beach (best decision i’ve made since moving to Poly), i tried ben and jerry’s chunky monkey ice cream (omg WTF people why has no one told me about this) and i watched the miami game, clipper game (it wasnt a laker game they didn’t show up) and he office at my friend’s house. we had a potluck. there was pizza, chicken wings and home made chicken pesto pasta. yeah. best valentine’s ever.
-i
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the most painful thing in the world is to try to hold on to the people that God wants you to let go of.
i decided to let you go. i was feeling really low, the lowest i have felt this quarter actually.
so i ran 5 miles. the clarity that is achieved when you run is unparalleled. it also releases endorphins :)
i realized that no matter what i do, i can’t escape the fact that you don’t want to be a part of my life, and i have to be ok with that. i need to stop trying to keep this “friendship” going, because the truth is it isn’t going anywhere. you’re gone and it seems like you want to stay gone, separate from everything that you once knew. and that’s fine. it’s completely your choice. i must train myself to let go.
because people come and people go. some stay some leave. it’s a fact of life. one that i think i have finally come to terms with.
so this is it. i doubt i will ever see you again, or talk to you for that matter. and as fucked up and shitty as that sounds, i know it’s something i need to get used to. you had an enormous impact on my life and it’s unfortunate that it’s come to this. but when God takes something away from you its because he’s preparing you for something better. right?
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The secret to running to to occasionally stress your system beyond what you perceive as your limits. Run a race every so often, go all out. Leave it all on the road / track / trail. Your body adjusts and just like that longer runs become easier. Your comfort zone pace is faster. Just something I always knew but just realized today on my run.
Also, there is no emotional or mental ailment, no amount of stress that cannot be cured by a good, long run.
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SLO Marathon, Half and 5k
I ran in the Inaugural SLO 5k this morning. 2nd place in my age group (18-24) and 13th overall. Not too shabby.
